Dear Heavenly Father,
I come before you with a heart full of gratitude for the precious gift of life and the temple you’ve entrusted to me. As I embark on the journey of learning to live a healthier lifestyle, I seek your guidance and strength.
Grant me the wisdom to make choices that honor the body, the temple of your Holy Spirit. Help me embrace a balanced diet that nourishes and sustains, recognizing the abundance of Your provision in every meal. Guide my steps towards regular physical activity, understanding that movement is a blessing that promotes well-being.
Lord, instill in me the discipline to prioritize rest and rejuvenation, knowing that true rest comes from You. Create in me a spirit of mindfulness and gratitude, that I may appreciate the present moment and Your glorious creation.
As I navigate the path to a healthier lifestyle, may Your grace empower me to overcome challenges and temptations, and cultivate habits that glorify You. In this journey, let Your love be my motivation, and may I be a vessel of Your light in honoring the temple You’ve given me.
In Jesus’ name, I pray.
Amen.
My beautiful friends,
I want this platform to allow for open and honest communication between myself and those of you who are taking the time to read the words on your screen. I will take the lead on that mission, and during this post, be completely vulnerable about something that has always been tough for me.
Recently, I sustained an injury to my back in the most macho way ever; going down a playground slide – slide 1, Steve 0. After months of therapies, medications, MRIs, X-rays, doctor visits, epidural injections, and debilitating pain, I finally got to sit face to face with a neurosurgeon. It took no time for her to tell me that I require a procedure called a laminectomy – to sum it up, they remove part of the vertebrae to help free the nerve root cluster that is being pinched. It is about a 6–8-week post-op recovery. My back is a cut and dry case for the surgery; however, I am not. I was told I would need to lose a considerable amount of weight to qualify.
Based on my BMI, I need to go from a weight of 368 pounds down to around 275 pounds. I’m confident that I can lose weight, I have done it before, and that is the sobering reality. I know the work and the time that it takes to eat a balanced diet, manage portions, get enough sleep, and exercise. Before the Covid-19 pandemic, I went from 360 pounds down to 225 in 9 months. I stopped drinking alcohol, incorporated more green vegetables, and stayed away from refined sugars and flour. I exercised a minimum of 4 days a week, and stayed as active as possible at my job, which wasn’t hard to do as the innkeeper in the mountains of Montana.
From the ages 17 – 30, apart from the year I lost over 100 lbs., I treated my body like a demolition derby car, and alcohol was my fuel of choice. It didn’t matter if it came in a can, a bottle, a box, or a bag, I drank it like there was no tomorrow. I had this unfortunate ability to not turn down things as well. If you gave me a pill, I was going to crush and snort it. If you lit it on fire, I was going to smoke it. I wore my high tolerance like some kind of badge of honor. I tend to say I was a walking Jackass audition tape, and I was trying to out-do Steve-O. 2005-2017 is just one giant blur of a memory. I led a lifestyle that the man I am today is appalled by.
You would assume that means I got my act together after that last paragraph, and you would assume wrong. It didn’t matter how hard I tried; I couldn’t drop the bottle. I would lie to myself and say that I could control the drinking; I don’t have a problem, everyone drinks; I’m a social drinker; this $150 bottle of scotch is going to last a while; I can stop anytime I want. When I met my now wife, I was excited for our relationship and didn’t want to reveal the dark side of me. She didn’t drink much at all (maybe a glass of wine a month), and didn’t want it in her house, or around her baby. I respected her, and sobriety was worth her. But that demon eventually came out to play on more than one occasion, and I’m darn near certain that the next time would’ve been the last time for her to tolerate it. I would’ve drank her away, like the pain I was trying to drown. I wouldn’t blame her, there’s only so much love a person can show to someone with an addiction.
I’m not quite sure how to describe what it is like to be an addict, but I will do my best. There is an inner voice that taunts the addict. It’s a menacing voice that says, “You know how good it makes you feel, all you need is to get your fix, and everything will be alright.” That little voice doesn’t care if you lose your job, your money, your car, your family, your friends, your house, or your life. It just wants you. It is like a virus, and you are the host. It will chew you up and spit you out, and you just go along with it. It is the master and you’re the slave. Addiction is hell, and that sinister voice is the devil himself. One hundred percent, the devil uses the addict as his personal playground. All glory to God, I was saved.
It had been about 4 months since my last drink when He revealed Himself to me. I was eating breakfast at my dining room table and had a horrible vision as I cut into my meat. I was suddenly surrounded by the fires of hades, and my soul was being sliced in vertical strips just like the chunk of steak I was carving. I watched in absolute horror as a hoard of demons consumed my burning flesh. I could smell the scorching of my body hair until the hot smoke boiled the fluids in my throat and lungs and felt the skin blister and slip off from my arms and legs, as my face began to melt. All the while, I was being laughed at and they were taunting my blood curdling screams.
This vision lasted all of five seconds, but it felt like a lifetime. I immediately made my way to the sink and vomited up my breakfast. He knew that I needed a wake-up call and boy did he deliver. When I set out to quit drinking the last time, I looked up at the sky and said, “I can’t do this on my own, it’s in your hands now.” As I reflect on that moment, I think God knew that I was teetering. I only said ‘it’s in your hands’ because I read it in a book, but I didn’t truly believe that somehow Jesus would magically make me stop drinking for good.
I bought a Bible online after I cleaned up the mess. On my drive to work I prayed a series of Our Fathers and Hail Marys. I prayed that night in the shower before bed, and asked God to protect me. I had a dream that night and heard The Lord’s voice. He told me that it was Him who sent the vision I saw at breakfast. He revealed to me every sign over the course of my life where He was pointing me to the path that would lead me to Him, and every wrong turn I made in the opposite direction.
It all became so clear to me that none of this belongs to us, it is all His, including our bodies. To take care of ourselves, is to honor God, it is to thank and praise Him for everything, even the bad. It is our duty to thank Him. If you woke up today, thank Him. If you are feeling good and healthy, thank Him. If you’re in pain, thank Him. If you’re able to use your legs, thank Him. If you have vision, thank Him. If you are blind, thank Him. If you lose your job, thank Him. If you buy a new car, thank Him. Thank and honor His Holy Name for everything.
In making healthy choices, we honor the temple God has entrusted to us. Corinthians 6:19-20 reminds us, “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your bodies.” Choosing health is a form of gratitude and recognizes the gift of life and the responsibility to care for ourselves. Proverbs 3:7-8 offers, “Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring heath to your body and nourishment to your bones.” To actively live out this gem of wisdom, we can incorporate practical steps in our daily lives. Embrace a balanced diet, rich in fruits, vegetables, and whole grains, to honor the body God has given us. Engage in regular physical activity, remembering that our bodies are designed perfectly for movement.
Perhaps even more importantly, prioritize rest and sleep, understanding that proper rest rejuvenates our bodies and spirt. Develop a mindset of mindfulness and gratitude and appreciate the present moments and the goodness of God’s creation. As we make these choices, we not only take care of ourselves but also express thanksgiving to the Maker, tipping our hats to His provision and seeking to glorify Him through our well-being.